As the dog and I growl morning greetings at one another vague images in my head remind me of the challenges yet come. Gagging down breakfast, choosing a suitable quarrel with my partner and chipping away at my children's self esteem are no more than distractions for what I truly fear....... the morning commute.
In this age of increasing spiritual awareness friends suggested that I embrace this daily nightmare rather than fight it. ... that I use it as a learning, growing, spiritual, Zen-like experience. Even though I am about as flexible as case hardened steel I did have to accept that this change of direction was preferable to suffering an aneurysm.
Not far into my journey I realized that starting my vehicle was an opportunity to engage in open-ended learning. Battery charging and boosting... tire repair and replacement... window scraping and snow brushing all contributed to my storehouse of knowledge. The changing seasons added variation to the learning at hand. 'Ditch Slide and Extraction' in the winter was as informative as the 'Choke and Sputter' during spring rains. I admit that the 'How many people can I splash?' in the spring is far more appealing than the 'How many toes will freeze off?' aspect of the winter sessions.
The Zen of the trip in allowed for a full exercising of all my senses. As my bladder quickly fills with the coffee I rented earlier in the morning, I use all my visual acuity to locate a washroom along my route. Other senses come into play as well. The sound of the broken fan belt slapping dents into my hood distract me from fully appreciating the delicate odour of diesel fumes coming from the eighteen-wheelers that have boxed me in.
The myriad of human behaviors also becomes more apparent as I become a more enlightened observer. The old philosophy of 'might makes right' is underscored in a loaded gravel truck changing lanes every thirty seconds while I have been trapped in the snail lane for at least thirty minutes. The higher aspects of humanity are observable as well however. Letting the little old lady move in front of me is a truly humanitarian gesture not diminished in the least when she lets three school buses and a cattle-liner move in front of her.
Tolerance, empathy and balance can be learned along the way as well. When I weigh the urge to scream expletives at the stalled car in front of me against the temptation to laugh at the ticketing of the jerk that cut me off, true balance is achieved. Resisting the compulsion to ram the slow Greyhound in front of me opens me up to be more tolerant. Understanding the grimace and yellowing eyes of the driver stuck beside me is an empathetic reaction based on my own experiences with an overfilled bladder.
The 'Commute' has opened my eyes to the learning that can be had in the other difficult areas of my life. I look forward to the discoveries and pleasures that will be gleaned from my next visit to the dentist.....the next tax audit.... and the next prostate exam I have to undergo.
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